“It is powerful and it is a really important loop to be aware of. I’ve noticed this when I went back and looked at my diaries and I was struck during my lonely years at how often I retreated from social interaction. People would ask me out for dinner and I would say no, people would ask me out for drinks after work and I would say no. Social interactions began to make me anxious and that was the case even though I desperately needed more sociability in my life and I couldn’t make sense of this paradox and I started blaming myself for it. And when you’re lonely you can start to feel as though you don’t have what you need to bring to social situations, you don’t feel safe in those situations. So you start to retreat and the more you do that the lonelier you become and it becomes this vicious circle that you can’t get out of.”—Emily White (via pyrexia)
sometimes you just feel the need to drink yourself to oblivion and only stop when you start puking up blood.
it’s perfectly normal, healthy actually.
don’t worry friends im being partially sarcastic.